Comfort in Familiarity

I don’t know how many times I’ll drop the ball on this, but it seems that no matter how many times I do, I keep returning to it.

I keep returning to it because it brings me joy. Reconnects me with the things that make me feel my best. And it’s familiar. Kind of like going back to basics.

A lot has happened in the past two years. I’m working as an Employee Well-being Program Manager for the organization where I’ve committed the past 6 1/2 years. I love it. The people there shine in my life. I’m doing things that allow me to support others, lift them up, and be well.

The nation is also quarantined.

“Non-essential” businesses are closed to the public. Parks are closed. The #StayHome movement is in full swing, trying to convince people to stay home to prevent and slow the spread of COVID-19, the coronavirus.

Unless you’re living under a rock (which, no judgies, according to Hubsters, I grew up under one), you know all about all this. So I’m not going to go into detail. That’s just the sate of the current landscape.

It’s changed a lot of things for a lot of people. Anxiety is running high. People are scared. They’re bored. They’re surrounded by their families or alone, cabin fever burning.

While the struggle is real, it’s caused me to final circle back to the habits that make me feel best.

I’d fallen off the workout wagon and was tottering along behind it, trying to catch up – but not really. My heart wasn’t in it.

My whole body felt it. The constant lethargy, the shitty mood, that junk food cravings. The whole shebang.

Now that I’m working from home every day and my boss is so flexible with my schedule, I’ve found it easier to workout when my energy is high, my coordination is good, and allowing me to truly function and move at my best. No more bumbling into the garage with my eyes half open and jerking myself through a routine. I always felt better, I’ll admit. But the process wasn’t sustainable. I was a new-born field mouse trying to be a gladiator. It’s amazing I didn’t hurt myself.

So here I go. Trying again to document my journey, hopefully inspire and entertain others, and continue to remind myself why this journey is worth it.

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